I'm gonna keep this short to keep from crying. I went to the surgeon today and everything is good except being the great and thorough surgeon he is he wants to take my case before a tumor board (say what now). Its a board made up of pathologists, oncologists, and other -gists, anyways he wants to take my file to them to get a final ok to do the band. One of his colleagues suggested maybe waiting 6 mos and doing and endoscopy to make sure, he doesn't think that is necessary but to make sure to do the safest thing for me he wants to get a final say so from this board (who only meet once a month). While I love him and he is a really sweet guy I almost think he is too good at his job and while I am grateful considering this is a life and death situation and this will ensure less possible complications if/when I am banded, it is very frustrating.
I am tired of being fat, I want some help but I guess I'm gonna have to attempt it again the old fashioned way, this roller coaster is getting to me. I am not giving up but I need to be doing something in the meantime it's driving me bananas.
I really wanted to cry after talking to him but I told myself this is happening for a reason, but when I walked my fat ass outside in this 100 degree weather I was like it's really too damn hot to be fat and thighs rubbing lol.
So I am going do what I can and try not to drive myself bonkers with the band issue. I had been counting the days until this appointment and I'm going to try not to comfort myself with food although I did promise a fellow bandster Cindylew I would do some "research" on the new late night cheeseburger Doritos, she was wondering how they got the pickle flavor in there and I said I would sacrifice and look into it just for her lol.
Okay so this post isn't so short and I don't want you guys to feel bad for me just wanted to let you guys know the deal before I went to bed I've kinda been in a funk all day.
Oh yeah I feel like there is an exclusive club that i keep getting denied access to...KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK let me in!
Today Is A Hard Day
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