Days since surgery

Friday, July 09, 2010

What's a girl gotta do get a band around here

I'm gonna keep this short to keep from crying. I went to the surgeon today and everything is good except being the great and thorough surgeon he is he wants to take my case before a tumor board (say what now). Its a board made up of pathologists, oncologists, and other -gists, anyways he wants to take my file to them to get a final ok to do the band. One of his colleagues suggested maybe waiting 6 mos and doing and endoscopy to make sure, he doesn't think that is necessary but to make sure to do the safest thing for me he wants to get a final say so from this board (who only meet once a month). While I love him and he is a really sweet guy I almost think he is too good at his job and while I am grateful considering this is a life and death situation and this will ensure less possible complications if/when I am banded, it is very frustrating.
I am tired of being fat, I want some help but I guess I'm gonna have to attempt it again the old fashioned way, this roller coaster is getting to me. I am not giving up but I need to be doing something in the meantime it's driving me bananas.
I really wanted to cry after talking to him but I told myself this is happening for a reason, but when I walked my fat ass outside in this 100 degree weather I was like it's really too damn hot to be fat and thighs rubbing lol.
So I am going do what I can and try not to drive myself bonkers with the band issue. I had been counting the days until this appointment and I'm going to try not to comfort myself with food although I did promise a fellow bandster Cindylew I would do some "research" on the new late night cheeseburger Doritos, she was wondering how they got the pickle flavor in there and I said I would sacrifice and look into it just for her lol.
Okay so this post isn't so short and I don't want you guys to feel bad for me just wanted to let you guys know the deal before I went to bed I've kinda been in a funk all day.

Oh yeah I feel like there is an exclusive club that i keep getting denied access to...KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK let me in!

11 comments:

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

How frustrating! Honey, I would cry too! Waiting for approval is very frustrating and I'm sorry you still have to wait. You are so right though....there is a reason for everything. Hang in there. We are here for you.

Ronke143 said...

SHEEEESH....GIVE THE GIRL HER BAND!!!

But seriously...you will feel a lot better knowing that a whole board of -gists said you were okay!

Hoping that you get your full access pass to the club soon!!

Drazil said...

Oh I'm so sorry - dang it! Keep the faith - everything happens EXACTLY when it is supposed to. I believe that....we're all here for you.

Jenny said...

Ugh, I'm sorry. It is so hard to be patient. I hope that this goes quickly for you.

Pamela E. Williams said...

I agree with Ronke on getting the board together. We want you healthy on this journey with us so you can go all out, like I know you will.

Its coming, I know it is.

Nella said...

I feel your frustration and you should trust the doc's judgement. he is just looking out for YOU! One step at a time baby...you can DO IT!

-Grace- said...

I understand your frustration. Keep the faith, though. It will happen!!!

Cindylew said...

I'm with Draz on this one cupcake. Absolutely everything happens for a reason and you will get your band (I feel it) exactly when you're supposed to get it.
I know it sucks because I remember exactly how it felt when I was simply waiting for insurance approval. So I am not belittling the frustration of these delays...I'm just saying this is how it has to play out in order for you to be well.

julie said...

I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. I know once most people make this decision they want it done yesterday!!! I am hoping the waiting time goes quickly for you.

Sara Beth said...

I only just started following your blog, so I don't know what's been happening that is making your surgeon want to do that, but here's some encouragement...

When my insurance gave approval, I was told I had 3 months of appointments before I could be officially approved. I was VERY down! After my first appointment, I was rushed to the emergency room because my appendix was leaking and about to burst. Had I not had that appointment, we wouldn't have known it was leaking...while doing my appendectomy, my surgeon found cancer. All because of that appointment I didn't want to have. My 3 months is up, my cancer is gone and my surgery is in two weeks. It WILL happen! There just might be some bumps along the way, and you have an awesome community to help encourage you along the way. Just stay strong and encouraged!

Amaris said...

I, too, have only recently started reading your blog, so I don't know the whole situation. Even so, I really felt your frustration. I'd really be frustrated too. I hope it all works out for you and that you get banded SOON!