Days since surgery

Thursday, June 16, 2011



Thursday, April 14, 2011

Post workout glow

I did a 2 mile walking workout by Leslie Sansone and wanted to join in the posting of my post workout glow (glow my arse, funky sweat!!!)  I could only show neck up cause I was only in my bra, not sports bra, just bra and I don't think you ready for that jelly (Beyonce song, in honor of my band's name Sasha not so Fierce). 
P.S. I look rough!!! lol

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


Let me start by saying that Dr. Phil sometimes works my last nerve but I have to say that this article on his website spoke to me.  I found it by reading someone's success story on, where I have been tracking my food and exercise lately.  I am really trying to be more accountable for what is going in my mouth because the scale is not moving and I haven't been either. 

Stop Choosing to be Overweight

If you are obese, you're putting your health at risk. Take control of your weight now to reduce the possibility of suffering serious complications. Having tried and failed in the past is no excuse to give up on yourself now. Dr. Phil spells out the most common weight loss pitfalls so that you can avoid them.

•Making excuses.
What is your excuse? "I don't have time to work out? I'm too busy working?" Get real! Life Law #1 is "You either get it or you don't." What is making you fat? It isn't your schedule or your metabolism or your willpower. Stop making excuses.

•Letting your weight be your payoff.
Life Law #3 is, "People Do What Works." How is your weight working for you? What is your payoff for being overweight? Does the weight protect you by providing a barrier? Is the weight a form of rebellion? Do you get attention from it by playing the victim? Is your overeating a way of getting pleasure? Accept that you have chosen to be overweight because of the payoff, and have stayed overweight by having a lifestyle that contributes to it.  My weight is my shield and protection that I do recognize and I believe that I want to get rid of it but now I question myself everyday about that.  I'm a person that somehow ends up putting on a couple of pounds after too many compliments or a new low on the scale.
Diets don't work because dieting is not a long-term solution. If you diet to lose weight, you'll gain the weight back once you get off the diet. Remember, you behave your way to success. There are no quick fixes. Even gastric bypass surgery can only provide short-term results if your behavior and your thinking don't change.  I love this bolded line, I want everyone who thinks we "cheated"(lapbanders and bypassers) to know we still work hard for it all.

•Responding to triggers.
What triggers you to overeat? Is it a certain time of the day? Do you turn to food when you get upset? Life Law #4 is, "You can't change what you don't acknowledge." So you need to be honest about how you are using food, and change the way you respond to your triggers.  I think I eat out of loneliness although I like being alone(hard to explain), I'm starting to think I may be mildly depressed but I don't want to own that.

•Listening to internal dialogue.
What is your internal dialogue saying? That you're a failure? A quitter? That you'll never lose weight? If so, you need to change these limiting beliefs because they are sabotaging your efforts. How will you change if you don't believe you can change? How can you lose the weight this time if deep down you believe that the outcome is predestined and that you are destined to fail?   (This is one of the reasons I think I'm going to start therapy because I'm a chronic self-saboteur and doubter.

This is added by me also "borrowed".

We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty." -- Maya Angelou

Tuesday, March 22, 2011


Quick post because I should be in bed by now.  I was watching this show called Heavy that comes and A&E and this woman says that her one of main goals is to be able to run and play with her grandkids.  The nutritionist took them into a grocery store and had them look at some of the things they would normally pick up.  The woman said  "I've been choosing food over my grandkids" and I thought wow, how many things in my life have I put food above.  Just life in general when you get this big your weight interferes with everything, it dictates how you live your life completely.  I have robbed my son of many things in his childhood and I have missed out on so many things that I truly wanted to do, but I chose food instead.  The thought that I have chose food over my son that I love more than anything is the world makes me sad, but it also makes me motivated. It is not too late...and I am going to make this happen. I owe it to him and more importantly to myself.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Blame It On the Boogie

Great way to jumpstart my weekend, but this has been motivating me all week, thanks to one of my favorite bloggers.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

When I need a lil something sweet

My sister works for A!r Canada and they serve (at least they use to, not sure now) these little cookies on their flights that I love.  They aren't too sweet but they are delish to me and most importantly I recognize everything on the short list of ingredients.  Well now that I'm trying to stop lying to myself and get my eating back on track with a more protein centered diet, I am trying to limit snacking.  Well, it is also that lovely time of the month where my craving for sweets is at it's peak.  Well W*lgreens the drug store sells these cookies and I knew they sold them in a pack of 32 but they also sell them where the cookies are pre-packaged in sets of 2 (built in portion control) so that's what I bought and they hit the spot when I need some sweetness. 2 cookies are 72 the words of Charlie Sheen...DUH...WINNING! I thought I'd share this Belgium made goodness with my friends!

P.S. I have really stepped my water game up big time, but if I have to keep going to the funky bathroom here it work that kinda takes away the pride I feel for getting my water in. This building is fairly new but apparently they didnt cap some sewer line under the building so the first floor women's bathroom has a distinct funk about it at all times.