Days since surgery

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Checking in

I haven't picked a particular diet plan...I am exploring clean eating or thinking of counting points like I did with WW. I know that I am a carb junkie so that whatever I do is gonna be high in protein and low in carbs. I slowly started exercising again mostly with the inflatable ball and hand weights and have been trying to do small exercises that you can do at your desk during the day. I am also trying eat every 2-3 hours which is no easy task because you are so programmmed to eat only when you are hungry so I have been bringing snacks and I am also going to be adding protein shakes into my diet.
It's been hard because this guy that I really like has just stopped talking to me for no clear reason and because it's never happened to me before, it's hard for me to let it go. My ex who I am very close to still is now dating someone else and I am not used to not being a priority in his life so I am adjusting to that as well...and trying not to turn to my pal food as a comfort. I am sick of food taking such a priority in my life, I am tired of thinking about it....I want to get to the mentality that it is something that I need to live and not something to make friends with...

Obama is winning in New Hampshire....history in the making...

Friday, January 04, 2008

Back on board for 2008

I am back trying this again I have gained all my pre-WW weight back plus 14lbs, I am torn about going back to WW or trying to do it on my own with online support. I have been thinking about trying this clean eating approach which will work with the WW program and the meetings are the accountability I need. I need to lose at least 20lbs really fast to at least get under my pre-WW weight. My knees are hurting and the heel of one of my feet....I know it is due to the weight gain, I am too young to be limping around like an old woman.
I see these people on tv that become immobile due to weight and you think it's not possible but I can see how it can be possible.
I am committed to be a better person physically, mentally and more importantly spiritually this year...that's my committment not my resolution. I am looking to find my peace and will avoid people who take away from that. I am making plans to see a counselor because I have some old issues I need to learn to let go and that is always hard for me and I think that is reflected in my weight. I will keep you posted because I know this journaling is important for me to in this journey.