tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-240601072024-03-19T09:10:30.963-04:00Diary of a hungry black woman....just weight!I am a superstar in the making. I am fighting the battle of the bulge (who isn't)and this is where I will document my fight. The good, the bad, and the flabby.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.comBlogger103125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-23544972178525798032011-06-16T01:50:00.002-04:002011-06-16T01:50:40.004-04:00I'LL BE BACK SOON....GOING THROUGH A BUNCH OF THINGS....HOPE TO FIND A WAY TO SHARE SOON, NOT READY YET....1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-78201280497366424352011-04-21T12:01:00.000-04:002011-04-21T12:01:30.876-04:00ANOTHER BORROWED INSPIRATIONAL QUOTE<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5d1jVJNt1m5CMF793U0uhVABnJZ5LwSSkY8ncTX4BSzZqMAi9hVJxA5w-dZxz4t2Sc9I9cNPXh4VAowQOg2-VSTltaPBNkqmA23pptXrI3H4v-x23VGJW0CthBbTBwk4lPnwU/s1600/quoteemersonmade.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="303" i8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5d1jVJNt1m5CMF793U0uhVABnJZ5LwSSkY8ncTX4BSzZqMAi9hVJxA5w-dZxz4t2Sc9I9cNPXh4VAowQOg2-VSTltaPBNkqmA23pptXrI3H4v-x23VGJW0CthBbTBwk4lPnwU/s320/quoteemersonmade.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-26526603547180582522011-04-14T14:20:00.000-04:002011-04-14T14:20:47.101-04:00Post workout glow<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHiFbxlb5kRqWzbajUQUGk5YZu8N-sA-B_6ncyRBNlMtN31QHVvAJ4MQhqY1h0nxZ2UqwyDNL3DFuSHOvei9XBvniMr908NXFreyhQWnVGJnKQZVs2j78-HMfhvBDgMWvHWwe8/s1600/post+workout.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" r6="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHiFbxlb5kRqWzbajUQUGk5YZu8N-sA-B_6ncyRBNlMtN31QHVvAJ4MQhqY1h0nxZ2UqwyDNL3DFuSHOvei9XBvniMr908NXFreyhQWnVGJnKQZVs2j78-HMfhvBDgMWvHWwe8/s320/post+workout.JPG" width="240" /></a></div>I did a 2 mile walking workout by Leslie Sansone and wanted to join in the posting of my post workout glow (glow my arse, funky sweat!!!) I could only show neck up cause I was only in my bra, not sports bra, just bra and I don't think you ready for that jelly (Beyonce song, in honor of my band's name Sasha not so Fierce). <br />
P.S. I look rough!!! lol1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-87086188692455245782011-04-12T14:38:00.002-04:002011-04-14T14:24:06.988-04:00STOP CHOOSING TO BE OVERWEIGHT<em><span style="color: blue;">Let me start by saying that Dr. Phil sometimes works my last nerve but I have to say that this article on his website spoke to me. I found it by reading someone's success story on MyFitnessPal.com, where I have been tracking my food and exercise lately. I am really trying to be more accountable for what is going in my mouth because the scale is not moving and I haven't been either. </span></em><br />
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If you are obese, you're putting your health at risk. Take control of your weight now to reduce the possibility of suffering serious complications. Having tried and failed in the past is no excuse to give up on yourself now. Dr. Phil spells out the most common weight loss pitfalls so that you can avoid them.<br />
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•Making excuses.<br />
What is your excuse? "I don't have time to work out? I'm too busy working?" Get real! Life Law #1 is "You either get it or you don't." What is making you fat? It isn't your schedule or your metabolism or your willpower. Stop making excuses.<br />
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•Letting your weight be your payoff. <br />
Life Law #3 is, "People Do What Works." How is your weight working for you? What is your payoff for being overweight? Does the weight protect you by providing a barrier? Is the weight a form of rebellion? Do you get attention from it by playing the victim? Is your overeating a way of getting pleasure? Accept that you have chosen to be overweight because of the payoff, and have stayed overweight by having a lifestyle that contributes to it. <span style="color: yellow;"> </span><span style="color: blue;"><em>My weight is my shield and protection that I do recognize and I believe that I want to get rid of it but now I question myself everyday about that. I'm a person that somehow ends up putting on a couple of pounds after too many compliments or a new low on the scale.</em></span><br />
•Dieting!<br />
Diets don't work because dieting is not a long-term solution. If you diet to lose weight, you'll gain the weight back once you get off the diet. Remember, you behave your way to success. There are no quick fixes. <strong>Even gastric bypass surgery can only provide short-term results if your behavior and your thinking don't change.</strong> <em><span style="color: blue;">I love this bolded line, I want everyone who thinks we "cheated"(lapbanders and bypassers) to know we still work hard for it all.</span></em><br />
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•Responding to triggers.<br />
What triggers you to overeat? Is it a certain time of the day? Do you turn to food when you get upset? Life Law #4 is, "You can't change what you don't acknowledge." So you need to be honest about how you are using food, and change the way you respond to your triggers.<span style="color: red;"> </span><span style="color: blue;"><em>I think I eat out of loneliness although I like being alone(hard to explain), I'm starting to think I may be mildly depressed but I don't want to own that.</em></span><br />
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•Listening to internal dialogue. <br />
What is your internal dialogue saying? That you're a failure? A quitter? That you'll never lose weight? If so, you need to change these limiting beliefs because they are sabotaging your efforts. How will you change if you don't believe you can change? How can you lose the weight this time if deep down you believe that the outcome is predestined and that you are destined to fail? <span style="color: blue;"><em>(This is one of the reasons I think I'm going to start therapy because I'm a chronic self-saboteur and doubter.</em></span><br />
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This is added by me also "borrowed".<br />
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We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty." -- Maya Angelou1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-11897491908889914952011-03-22T00:11:00.001-04:002011-03-22T00:16:03.938-04:00AHA MOMENT<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://nintemanfitness.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/05/aha_moment.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" r6="true" src="http://nintemanfitness.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/05/aha_moment.gif" /></a></div>Quick post because I should be in bed by now. I was watching this show called Heavy that comes and A&E and this woman says that her one of main goals is to be able to run and play with her grandkids. The nutritionist took them into a grocery store and had them look at some of the things they would normally pick up. The woman said "I've been choosing food over my grandkids" and I thought wow, how many things in my life have I put food above. Just life in general when you get this big your weight interferes with everything, it dictates how you live your life completely. I have robbed my son of many things in his childhood and I have missed out on so many things that I truly wanted to do, but I chose food instead. The thought that I have chose food over my son that I love more than anything is the world makes me sad, but it also makes me motivated. It is not too late...and I am going to make this happen. I owe it to him and more importantly to myself.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-44928995358870513722011-03-18T07:28:00.000-04:002011-03-18T07:28:37.598-04:00Blame It On the Boogie<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/nb1u7wMKywM?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div>Great way to jumpstart my weekend, but this has been motivating me all week, thanks to one of my favorite bloggers.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-84578219757503986302011-03-17T10:43:00.000-04:002011-03-17T10:43:05.733-04:00When I need a lil something sweet<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBoNK3d0S5qgkrIYExL_eQMKEjBCHITG7a3sZKH9n_-Wyf4v6n6MtZjXEGajtFKjRMMEQXEWXQR8ECb47um5FQOAj1WopQDRmrjmc7qx4Sa0m0UNvbCDGYQ9Q0hXZo1qakAs18/s1600/73+cal+snack.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" r6="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBoNK3d0S5qgkrIYExL_eQMKEjBCHITG7a3sZKH9n_-Wyf4v6n6MtZjXEGajtFKjRMMEQXEWXQR8ECb47um5FQOAj1WopQDRmrjmc7qx4Sa0m0UNvbCDGYQ9Q0hXZo1qakAs18/s320/73+cal+snack.JPG" width="320" /></a></div>My sister works for A!r Canada and they serve (at least they use to, not sure now) these little cookies on their flights that I love. They aren't too sweet but they are delish to me and most importantly I recognize everything on the short list of ingredients. Well now that I'm trying to stop lying to myself and get my eating back on track with a more protein centered diet, I am trying to limit snacking. Well, it is also that lovely time of the month where my craving for sweets is at it's peak. Well W*lgreens the drug store sells these cookies and I knew they sold them in a pack of 32 but they also sell them where the cookies are pre-packaged in sets of 2 (built in portion control) so that's what I bought and they hit the spot when I need some sweetness. 2 cookies are 72 calories...in the words of Charlie Sheen...DUH...WINNING! I thought I'd share this Belgium made goodness with my friends!<br />
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P.S. I have really stepped my water game up big time, but if I have to keep going to the funky bathroom here it work that kinda takes away the pride I feel for getting my water in. This building is fairly new but apparently they didnt cap some sewer line under the building so the first floor women's bathroom has a distinct funk about it at all times.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-76883171932659530772011-03-17T10:21:00.003-04:002011-03-24T14:28:22.565-04:00YOU KNOW I LOVE TO STEAL A QUOTE...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi44i11sidy-DcmWJIIBisSp43jijTEF9AGkPpng5RWqkZZqLHNA0_SckvsxvToLm7JFuen1r54tI-ufDL4O6oYfNFSfB1I7zvksLemh0Qu0QtvpB6btvHVVRQTMnJFpi579sE0/s1600/your+life.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="173" r6="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi44i11sidy-DcmWJIIBisSp43jijTEF9AGkPpng5RWqkZZqLHNA0_SckvsxvToLm7JFuen1r54tI-ufDL4O6oYfNFSfB1I7zvksLemh0Qu0QtvpB6btvHVVRQTMnJFpi579sE0/s320/your+life.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-89448023894229401542011-03-16T14:19:00.000-04:002011-03-16T14:19:16.800-04:006 month anniversary pic <table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">I can't believe it has been 6 months, I can't believe I'm so stuck in one place, I've changed strategies this week so hopefully I can see some movement in the scale who for the record is no longer my friend. But I promised pics a while back so here they are although no noticeable difference can be seen from my last pics, but I can see a difference since some of my heaviest times especially in my face (of course).</div>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-62115666481882039852011-02-21T10:30:00.000-05:002011-02-21T10:30:00.130-05:00Stolen Quote of the day<strong><span style="color: magenta; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Do the things you used to talk about doing but never did. Know when to let go and when to hold on tight. Stop rushing. Don't be intimidated to say it like it is. Stop apologizing all the time. Learn to say no, so your yes has some oomph. Spend time with the friends who lift you up, and cut loose the ones who bring you down. Stop giving your power away. Be more concerned with being interested than being interesting. Be old enough to appreciate your freedom, and young enough to enjoy it. Finally know who you are.”</span></strong><br />
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Stolen from <a href="http://paloma81.blogspot.com/">here</a>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-86573304354911685672011-02-16T21:27:00.000-05:002011-02-16T21:27:20.126-05:00PEOPLE ARE DREAMING OF MEOkay let me tell you guys something that is very crazy. I may have mentioned before that there is a young tenderoni (showing my age) 23 years old that has had a crush on my for the past 4 years. We talk from time to time I feel like his big sister most of the time and but ultimately he is good for my ego. <br />
Well the tenderoni sends me a text saying that he had a dream about me and at first I was afraid of what he was going to say but he said "nothin freaky you were extra skinny (he doesn't know about surgery) though and your eyes were sooooooo beautiful i was nervous to speak to you" he also told me he almost didnt recognize me at first. I was like yea you wer dreaming.<br />
Fast forward about a week later I get an email from a former co-worker who retired in January she knows I had the surgery because I referred her to my doctor and she consequently had the surgery as well. Well she now lives in the mountain, anyways....she emails me saying that she had a dream of me the night before and in her dream I was really skinny and had on this beautiful dress and...SHE ALMOST DIDN'T RECOGNIZE ME. It really freaked me out for her to use some of the same words that the Tenderoni used. I emailed her back and told her that I hope to make her dreams come true. He said beautiful eyes and she said beautiful dress well I'm just hoping for the skinny part lol!<br />
I wish I had good news on the weight loss front but I had to get my last fill removed because I got to a point where I couldn't even drink anything. My doctor says I will probably need to come back and get a smidge of it put back in (ok he didn't use the word smidge). I am trying to not get discourage by this lack of progress and I had been doing well on the exercise front (and by well it just means I was doing some) but since I have started the second job I haven't been motivated to exercise, every free moment I am trying to spend time with my son, get some resemblance of order in my apartment or go to sleep. But I know this is life and death and I am going to make the time1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-74456427825191430292011-01-27T08:07:00.000-05:002011-01-27T08:07:39.276-05:00Finally good restriction...but I have been spoiledI have finally gotten to the point that I've been reading about like forever, where certain things get stuck, pbing is a reality, fine chewing and slow eating is a must. Because of that I realized how spoiled I've been because apparently I haven't been chewing food up as well as I thought I was. As a matter of fact I was trying to eat some spaghetti and got stuck immediately when i pb'd there were clearly whole strands of spaghetti that didn't have any teeth marks at all like I just slurped it down. One day it seemed like I couldn't eat anything because a couple of days prior I'd had tooth extractions one on either side of my mouth so optimal chewing level could not be obtained and my band just seemed super duper tight.<br />
It gets frustrating at times because sometimes when I eat by the time I have chewed my first two bites my food is cold and I've been having some rough times financially so it is really hard for me to feel like I'm wasting food. I struggle with that a lot and but I am coming to the realization that this is what I signed up for and if a little food gets wasted it will be worth it as I waste away lol.<br />
Oh and the joy of shopping in my closet....hoarding has its advantages in this lapband journey. I feel like I've talked about this before but I'm too lazy to check. But I watch Hoarders and now on the new OWN network I watch Enough Already with Peter Walsh and I know the rules, if you havent worn it in a year get rid of it. Well damn it I'm glad I don't follow rules because due to the current financial crisis and although I havent lost a ton of weight and care most of my old clothes (albeit some may or may not have elastic bands that go on ponytails looped around the first belt loop and the button to make the waist fit better) I have been able to wear clothes that I haven't worn in forever and some I've never worn. <br />
*WARNING--HIP HOP SLANG WILL FOLLOW* Yea I be poppin' tags! That statement is pretty self explanatory it is used when you have new items and you are taking the price tags off for the first time. My sister recently had a baby shower and I wore a cute denim dress that I have had since about 2006 when I was losing weight on WW but I had never worn it and never took tags off. Everyone loved the dress and my sis thought I'd been shopping (she knows my finances) I said "Yep right in my walk in closet". So even when the scale hasn't been as generous to me as I would like those NSVs keep my head in the game.<br />
My water intake still leaves a lot to be desired but my activity level has improved dramatically, I have been using the Exercise On Demand channel and doing a 1 mile walking workout and I've been combining it with a short get started workout by The Biggest Loser contestants. Also I live on the 3rd floor of my apartment complex and I've been taking the stairs a lot more often, which is huge for me because Mimi don't do stairs.<br />
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One last thing, I am down 50lbs from my weight before the pre-op diet started which I've been thinking was my heaviest weight. Oh how we forget...I found a WW book from 2009 where I weighed 9lbs heavier than what I've been thinking was my highest recorded weight, so I am 59lbs down from my highest recorded weight and when I thought about it that true highest weight is what made me start thinking about having lapband surgery again.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-60853197088625432812011-01-18T12:02:00.000-05:002011-01-18T12:02:27.492-05:0050lbs down finally!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYSdll1nL4omdZyXh7mxLaoZ_uuZYVfxNfEHbUSfsq1TIaX0WSe9D4qhyphenhyphenqv3GuulFJIrUtvOR2CB4vvuGh_BtPDehIg8rvH9e4Jp7gWk1Vf0KDhtp_t48vjaRqlN8Qnx-QI9Iw/s1600/20_50_pounds_1993.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="174" n4="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYSdll1nL4omdZyXh7mxLaoZ_uuZYVfxNfEHbUSfsq1TIaX0WSe9D4qhyphenhyphenqv3GuulFJIrUtvOR2CB4vvuGh_BtPDehIg8rvH9e4Jp7gWk1Vf0KDhtp_t48vjaRqlN8Qnx-QI9Iw/s320/20_50_pounds_1993.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>The scale has started moving again since another fill last week and I have hit the 50 pound mark! I will have a full post later today just wanted to share the good news.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-91284612103975439102010-12-19T19:19:00.000-05:002010-12-19T19:19:08.573-05:00I just don't knowI know it has been a while but this has been a hectic and dare I say somewhat discouraging time for me I am in a plateau and frankly didn't think I would hit it this early in the journey. I think I lost more weight in Weight Watchers and I eat so much less than I did then. I think today the vegetarian thing comes to an end, my son quit yesterday and I don't feel like I have been getting enough protein and iron but more importantly due to my financial situation right now, I can't afford the variety of things that would make this more appealing.<br />
I have been avoiding blogland because mentally it's been hard, I have said it before I feel like people are looking for me to have lost more weight.<br />
I had another fill and not I officially have about 4.8ccs in my band and my doc says that most people get in a good spot about 5.5ccs with the band I have, so hopefully I'm getting close. But I have been eating so much better than ever before but the scale just hates me, sometimes I wonder if I'm not eating enough, my water drinking has sucked, so I am determined to do better. <br />
My 40th birthday is tomorrow and I am upset that financially I am unable to celebrate it like I want to, although I definitely feel blessed to have made it this far. With this birthday I am recommitting myself to turning my financial and weight loss situation around. I have many things I want to do and I am determined that my 40's will be more productive than my 30's when I felt like I watched life happen. I want to make life happen and you guys can hold me to that.<br />
I won't apologize any more for lack of blogging but just know that I think about you guys often and I know you guys are there for my support but I have still not learn how to completely open up, I have been shielding myself and internalizing my whole life, I am committed to changing that as well so please bear with me.<br />
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Update again soon...love you guys, smooches!1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-16562756381002194242010-12-02T10:13:00.002-05:002010-12-02T10:13:13.295-05:00Still alive....stolen quote for the day!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhr2hXQZPfIrz8c7xDN4qRkiey98Ga3P1qwWAWfd9bsWB3_2YcH8OuyO3yL0I8Ws5nd9oOrEg1JX6crzq-yDMj9KlPFHg0WYPIbq8OmxvFM7FzZEkhkO0yiZPLHATvkPr8pGI57/s1600/quote+whatever+you+give+to+a+woman+via+icanread.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="260" ox="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhr2hXQZPfIrz8c7xDN4qRkiey98Ga3P1qwWAWfd9bsWB3_2YcH8OuyO3yL0I8Ws5nd9oOrEg1JX6crzq-yDMj9KlPFHg0WYPIbq8OmxvFM7FzZEkhkO0yiZPLHATvkPr8pGI57/s320/quote+whatever+you+give+to+a+woman+via+icanread.png" width="320" /></a></div>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-30386115117909834492010-11-18T16:11:00.001-05:002010-11-18T16:14:55.128-05:00New Pics<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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Stolen thought for the day....I "borrowed" it from <a href="http://soulpretty.blogspot.com/">here!</a>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-1617147306741402082010-11-16T00:32:00.001-05:002010-11-17T21:38:13.374-05:00Vegetarian food review: Veggie Patch Meatballs get two snaps upAs you all know my son and I are doing this vegetarian and so far so good, I've lost the weight I had gained and a little more as of today, but official weigh in is not until Friday and considering this is the week of my cycle I pray I can stay down. <br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDDcQSQDVdq-_jvjSfD9T5RXInwC9WCHkWz7UW1VRdMHLOkfMLbvJzLHdezUUmEvjDlVHZtKzMGc4y5yqRmi8r21a8-nDYY1YyPIppb_4-iZ3Rs30f2D9O9gIcWS1RvPtcGwa3/s1600/meatballs_cover.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="196" px="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDDcQSQDVdq-_jvjSfD9T5RXInwC9WCHkWz7UW1VRdMHLOkfMLbvJzLHdezUUmEvjDlVHZtKzMGc4y5yqRmi8r21a8-nDYY1YyPIppb_4-iZ3Rs30f2D9O9gIcWS1RvPtcGwa3/s320/meatballs_cover.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Anyhoo, just wanted to say I tried these vegetarian meatballs, because my son is such a meat addict I have to succumb to the faux meat until we find more veggies he likes. So I made him a meatball sub with marinara sauce on fresh hoagie roll, I had one too except couldn't eat a lot of the bread. It was good and I must say if I hadn't known I was eating faux meat I wouldn't have guessed. My son killed his so that's a good sign as well.....so Veggie Patch Meatless Meatballs gets two snaps up!! <br />
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p.s. my water intake sucks and thats one area I'm usually good with...gotta get that together too.<br />
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UPDATE *disclaimer, I found out that these meatballs have textured vegetable protein which may not be all that great...more on that later1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-89165109904404391312010-11-12T21:38:00.000-05:002010-11-12T21:38:08.753-05:00Fill number 3 is in the history books.I got my 3rd fill yesterday and so far it seems that I actually have restriction, I won't speak too soon we will see in a couple of days. The vegetarian thing is going pretty good so far, still having cheese and probably will for a while even though maybe once I get more acclimated I may transition to vegan. <br />
We have this restaurant called Evo's that offers properly raised beef hamburger as well as vegetarian and even vegan burgers, the fries there are airbaked and I took my son there because I'm proud that he stuck this out this week. My son ate, slept, and breathed ground beef so this is more of a sacrifice for him and it's not like I'm making him do it, he is actually the reason I cut off meat cold turkey (no pun intended ha), the original plan was to transition. <br />
While at Evos, I observed that out of all the mom's that came in and out with their kids I was the only one above a size 2/4 and for those that actually sat in, none of them ordered their own food, they picked off their kids plate...I was like oh so starving is the key lol.<br />
I promised pictures and they are coming the ones my son took are crappy and the lighting was bad so we are going to take some outside this weekend and I will post them.<br />
Everyone have a good weekend, I think I may go see Unstoppable the new Denzel movie tomorrow, but I will keep you guys posted.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-89336581366677097472010-11-09T22:45:00.000-05:002010-11-09T22:45:48.106-05:00Vege...what?<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/reader/1556529988/ref=sib_dp_pt#reader-link" onclick="if (typeof(SitbReader) != 'undefined') { SitbReader.LightboxActions.openReader('sib_dp_pt'); return false; }"><img alt="By Any Greens Necessary: A Revolutionary Guide for Black Women Who Want to Eat Great, Get Healthy, Lose Weight, and Look Phat" border="0" height="300" id="prodImage" onload="if (typeof uet == 'function') { uet('af'); }" onmouseout="sitb_doHide('bookpopover'); return false;" onmouseover="sitb_showLayer('bookpopover'); return false;" src="http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51sO9NdhDdL._BO2,204,203,200_PIsitb-sticker-arrow-click,TopRight,35,-76_AA300_SH20_OU01_.jpg" width="300" /></a></div>After the last post on bacon, my son and I were in the bookstore this past weekend (we are there at least twice a week) I picked up a book I had seen on a previous visit, it is pictured above. Let me preface this by saying that I have been attracted to the vegetarian/vegan lifestyle for years but could never make the commitment. The closest I came is going about 5-6 years with no red meat or pork. Well I started browsing this book and reading to my son some of the things they said about the slaughterhouses ( I will spare you the details) and we started talking about trying to become vegetarian and I was shocked because my son is the hamburger king. <br />
We made a plan to eliminate pork first (alas no bacon), then we would eliminate red meat...etc. Well by the time we read some more he was like mom let's just do them all now. Well of course I can't be the weak one so I agreed so I am now on day 4 of vegetarianism. We haven't eliminate cheese yet so we are not all the way end at this point, he says his ultimate goal is to become vegan (we'll see).<br />
I checked with the nutritionist at his school and everyday they provide vegetarian options which is good. I had to tell Mr. Anti-veggie dude that he is not going to be a carb vegetarian, he needs to actually eat more veggies besides broccoli with cheese (he claims he likes, Ive never seen him eat), raw carrots and salad oh yeah and faux meat. <br />
So that's the plan, wish us luck. Oh yeah and I go in for my 3rd fill Thursday right now, I'm about 2lbs from my lowest and I pray that this next fill gets me closer to the sweet spot. I have been doing some resistance bands exercises but have yet to do a full sweat workout of any kind, I am ashamed to say. Tomorrow is my 2 month bandiversary and I will post pics and break a sweat....that is my vow to you!!! lol1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-76377609798685606282010-11-04T23:39:00.000-04:002010-11-04T23:39:25.843-04:00Fat Kid Loves Bacon<object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ZJqY-Sk9tvA?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ZJqY-Sk9tvA?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object><br />
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A kid after my own heart...bacon is good for me...Enjoy.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-57431169443978593212010-10-31T22:55:00.000-04:002010-10-31T22:55:57.011-04:00Not losing weight and frustrated..I knew it could happen but I think we all secretly think it wont happen to us...the scale is up 4-5lbs from my lowest and it started with my cycle but it hasnt disappeared and my eating has been crap so I know why. I don't have restriction and I'm in the bandster hell I've read about and I don't like it. <br />
Plus I feel like everyone is watching me, my sister asked me today how much I've lost I said well on any given day between 38-42lbs and she says well thats really not alot, really bitch I bet you can't do it in 2 months. Because when you count the presurgery diet...(which excuse me people is all willpower) and this hell that I'm in now with no restriction, this weight was lost through my effort, not from the band. <br />
But I can't make excuses I want this to bad...so I'm going to schedule me another fill next week, but this week I'm getting real basic even breaking out the protein shakes almost pre-op style, the thought of going up in weight is making me depressed and depression makes me want to eat. I gotta get my head right though and persevere I can't go back and losing weight feels so good. <br />
I apologize again for my lackluster blogging, but even this post tonight took effort because I'm in such a funk and I am the type to hold bad feelings in because I don't feel like people get me, a prime example is the b.s. my sister said to me today, how would I ever be able to go to her and explain what I'm going through she is already looking at me like I failed.<br />
I will keep you guys posted on my progress this week!<br />
p.s. apologize again for the last post about bodily functions but it weirds me out.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-51485673222215328292010-10-26T23:24:00.000-04:002010-10-26T23:24:17.926-04:00What happened to silent Farts!I just read Amy W's blog and it made me remember something that I've meaning to ask you guys, I get gas daily, not always the painful kind but just "I gotta fart" type gas. But what has happened to my fart I no longer have short, small farts EVER. THEY DON'T GO QUIETLY INTO THE NIGHT EVER!!! They are loud and long and if I'm really honest they come in both scented and unscented but they are sooooooo long and sooooooooooooooooo loud, I can't dare try to sneak one out anywhere, ever. I want my old farts back...not cool and not ladylike at all...<br />
I know all of this is TMI but who else can help me but you guys!!1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-63489207607889695422010-10-26T23:17:00.000-04:002010-10-26T23:17:06.117-04:00First time stuck...check!Well Saturday I took my bestie and my flirt buddy some Popeye's chicken on their lunch break. So we are all sitting there chatting and laughing and I break off a little piece of biscuit. I popped said little piece of biscuit in my mouth and chewed a little but in the midst of running my darn mouth I swallowed it and as it was going down I'm thinking will it get stuck, but I said nah nothing gets stuck and the piece wasn't that big. But it sat there and I could feel it. I didn't know if the legendary sliming would start so I asked quickly to be let in the building to get some ice and while inside and getting ice and pretending to be engaged in what was on tv I was stretching my hands above my head (a friend said it works) and kept swallowing I sipped a bit of water (tiny bit) and after a little while I felt it going down. So no sliming and it didn't come back up, but I have learned my lesson (I think), less talking more chewing.<br />
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Saturday my son was spending the night at my ex's house, so although it was not in the budget I got me a hotel room and stayed there all by my lonesome. I really needed to rest because I don't know if I have fully gotten into it here but I am temporarily staying at my mom's house, I am wating for my newly married sister to find a place and I am going to take over her place. She has bargain rent for a great amount of space in an ideal location. Having said that my son is on one couch and I am on another, my mom has two foster kids and they each have their own room but we sleep in the middle of the house and because I'm a light sleeper I don't feel like I am ever fully rested. So I got a nice room and slept and watched t.v. I had planned to blog but it was my first time pulling out my laptop since my sister's wedding weekend and it looks like they left my power cord in the hotel room, I just ordered that cord and the housekeeping department won't call me back so I am going to have to pay them a visit.<br />
Oh and some chick called the room I was staying in and when I answered there was a pause and she says "Obviously I got the wrong number" I was like okay and then she asked for someone Sheldon? or something like that I was like no you have the wrong number. <br />
Well after I took a nap and ran out to grab something to eat I was watching tv and heard a knock at the door, but no one knew where I was so at first I thought maybe it was next door. Then they knocked again so I went and answer by looking through the peephole and it was a lady basically saying that she was the one that had called earlier and that she was looking for some dude and he had lost his phone and that this room was the last place she knew him to be. I told her well he is not here (all this through the door) and she stood there for a while like she didn't believe me and then she finally says ok thanks but still seemed hesitant about leaving. I said dang drama is following me and I don't even know these people.<br />
On the weight front I am up about 4lbs from my lowest and fluctuating around 40lbs down, I am focusing on my eating again and I am tempted to go for another fill but I am going to give it another week or two and see what happens.1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24060107.post-91634211748029499382010-10-21T20:59:00.000-04:002010-10-21T20:59:21.035-04:00Something to think about, I stole from another blog<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaDFIJmKJJJ-G4u4QZp2LmQKIgPxjFfWZj6xqeLH3mKMLzo1jVLP6nVwjulBWGaRGo6B1NVblc9bImdo1gBlT11gFclp6dHrPbqOge7Hggt8x-crFA8p85mjoRlWFEmiP9iN5y/s1600/life_.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" nx="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaDFIJmKJJJ-G4u4QZp2LmQKIgPxjFfWZj6xqeLH3mKMLzo1jVLP6nVwjulBWGaRGo6B1NVblc9bImdo1gBlT11gFclp6dHrPbqOge7Hggt8x-crFA8p85mjoRlWFEmiP9iN5y/s400/life_.jpg" width="315" /></a></div>1reign (Mimi)http://www.blogger.com/profile/05018118610629612972noreply@blogger.com3