I have finally gotten to the point that I've been reading about like forever, where certain things get stuck, pbing is a reality, fine chewing and slow eating is a must. Because of that I realized how spoiled I've been because apparently I haven't been chewing food up as well as I thought I was. As a matter of fact I was trying to eat some spaghetti and got stuck immediately when i pb'd there were clearly whole strands of spaghetti that didn't have any teeth marks at all like I just slurped it down. One day it seemed like I couldn't eat anything because a couple of days prior I'd had tooth extractions one on either side of my mouth so optimal chewing level could not be obtained and my band just seemed super duper tight.
It gets frustrating at times because sometimes when I eat by the time I have chewed my first two bites my food is cold and I've been having some rough times financially so it is really hard for me to feel like I'm wasting food. I struggle with that a lot and but I am coming to the realization that this is what I signed up for and if a little food gets wasted it will be worth it as I waste away lol.
Oh and the joy of shopping in my closet....hoarding has its advantages in this lapband journey. I feel like I've talked about this before but I'm too lazy to check. But I watch Hoarders and now on the new OWN network I watch Enough Already with Peter Walsh and I know the rules, if you havent worn it in a year get rid of it. Well damn it I'm glad I don't follow rules because due to the current financial crisis and although I havent lost a ton of weight and care most of my old clothes (albeit some may or may not have elastic bands that go on ponytails looped around the first belt loop and the button to make the waist fit better) I have been able to wear clothes that I haven't worn in forever and some I've never worn.
*WARNING--HIP HOP SLANG WILL FOLLOW* Yea I be poppin' tags! That statement is pretty self explanatory it is used when you have new items and you are taking the price tags off for the first time. My sister recently had a baby shower and I wore a cute denim dress that I have had since about 2006 when I was losing weight on WW but I had never worn it and never took tags off. Everyone loved the dress and my sis thought I'd been shopping (she knows my finances) I said "Yep right in my walk in closet". So even when the scale hasn't been as generous to me as I would like those NSVs keep my head in the game.
My water intake still leaves a lot to be desired but my activity level has improved dramatically, I have been using the Exercise On Demand channel and doing a 1 mile walking workout and I've been combining it with a short get started workout by The Biggest Loser contestants. Also I live on the 3rd floor of my apartment complex and I've been taking the stairs a lot more often, which is huge for me because Mimi don't do stairs.
One last thing, I am down 50lbs from my weight before the pre-op diet started which I've been thinking was my heaviest weight. Oh how we forget...I found a WW book from 2009 where I weighed 9lbs heavier than what I've been thinking was my highest recorded weight, so I am 59lbs down from my highest recorded weight and when I thought about it that true highest weight is what made me start thinking about having lapband surgery again.
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